In The Pourin Rain...

To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles;
Screaming, "I'm in love with you."
Wait there in the pourin' rain,
Come back for more.
And don't you leave, 'Cause I know all I need
Is on the other side of the door.
~Taylor Swift
The Other Side of The Door

Now I See...

Sorry about the very long delay....I haven't posted in just about a month...crazy but good times lately...and I am so happy to say that I am doing so much better. School started back up in full swing on August 24th and it is my last year as a Nursing Student! I am officially a College Senior! Feels so amazing to say that and think of how much I have been able to accomplish! Not to mention everything that I have experienced and this May...I will be an RN! Feels incredibly amazing!
But on a different note...I must comment about everything else that has been going on. I feel a thousand times better and I am now able to see that everything does happen for a reason. There for awhile...I was so upset about the whole break-up and down on myself and questioning everything and blaming myself. Now I am not saying in anyway that I am perfect or that I didn't do anything wrong in the relationship...because I most definitely did...but I can honestly say that right now...I am happier than I have been in the past three or four years. No, I did not ever think that I would have been able to say that...but it is indeed true. I feel so much better...happier...any word that can describe happiness and enjoyment. I feel blissfully free and to be honest I feel that it is because I am able to focus on myself again. Sounds selfish I know...and I thought about it...but it is so true. For the past however many years...I focused all of my time, strength, energy and compassion on Chuck...I gave up everything for him and put my all into him...thinking that it was the same thing as putting my "all" into the relationship but it definitely wasn't and only now do I realize that. A relationship is supposed to be equal in the give and take department and in mine...it wasn't. He took everything from me and left me with nothing when all is said and done. Does that mean he is a bad person? No...just that there are a lot of things that he needs to work on in life.
Since the break-up...I find that I have soooo much extra time and then I started thinking about it and realized how much time I spent arguing with him and chasing him and making sure that I knew that what he was doing was the right thing...I forgot all about myself and what Alicia needed. I find that I am getting my self-esteem back and doing the things that I once loved so much...but gave up. Is that his fault? No it is not...because I was the one who let it all happen and gave up everything...but it still was a realization that I had to make. I have all this time now and I am filling it with activities that make me happy and are for the benefit of me. I now have time to completely indulge myself in my studies and make my senior year an amazing one! I now have time again to frolic and be free to do whatever I want whenever I want. I no longer have to rush home to check on him...I now come home when I want to and hang out with friends and spend hours shopping at the mall or getting a pedicure or whatever comes to my mind.
Also, it may sound so odd...or maybe I just never saw all of it before...but I feel as though a lot of positive things have been coming my way...like serendipity...I know it sounds crazy...but I just feel that a lot of good things have been happening and I have been so much happier. It is such a great feeling!
Now...is this all to say that I am completely healed? No...definitely not...it still hurts quite a bit...but instead of focusing all of my energy on something that ended...I've been focusing on moving on and forward with my life...instead of dwelling on what could have been. Sometimes I find something sitting around thinking about him...but then I stop myself and think about something else. There is no use spending anymore time thinking about him when it is perfectly clear that he is not thinking about me. I just have to keep reminding myself that I need to move forward. I'm not sure as to when I will be healed...but I would never put a time frame on it...but I just keep reassuring myself that I will indeed heal....it can't rain forever...right?

Dwelling...

So I hate to keep blogging about this ended relationship...but as of right now...it is the only thing on my mind...until school starts back up again...I am stuck dwelling on everything. It is not that I am choosing to sit around and dwell...it is just that unless I am doing something every minute of the day...I do start dwelling....so what am I dwelling on? Well believe it or not...I'm stuck thinking about all of the good times that we had...then as I'm dwelling on those memories...I start to question my actions and second guess myself. Like did I do the right thing by ending it? Should I have continued to stay in the relationship? Should I still be standing by his side...trying to protect him and help him make the right decision? What should I have done? These among a whole list of other things have been running through my head constantly...and I'm not sure why. Does this mean something? Or is this a normal part of breaking or ending a toxic relationship? He was my first love and we started dating our senior year of high school and have been together ever since...so it is not like I have anything else to go off of. Then...in addition to all of my lingering thoughts, I've been seeking out people to talk to and ask about what they think about my actions. So far everyone has told me that it was a good idea to end things and that I should move on and find something better because it is what I deserve, but then someone who was in a similar situation has told me that I need to be there for him and stand by his side. Is that what I should do? The only different circumstances are that she was pregnant with his child...so is that why she stood by his side? If you have kids does it make the circumstances different? Or are they the same all across the board? I know that I should feel confident with my decision, knowing that I will be moving on...but I'm not...I'm wondering if I did the right thing? To try and cope with these thoughts I would question myself but then be like no...he cheated on you and was hiding things and telling lies...why would you want to be with someone like that? I have to keep telling myself that right? I guess I'm just wondering if I should have gotten over the cheating and lies and stayed with him to be by his side...only because you hear about other relationships working out even after someone cheated on the other....so when should you stay and work on it and when should you leave? I know I am only thinking about all of this stuff because after the relationship ended I all of a sudden had an abundance of time on my hands because I no longer had obligations. I didn't have to rush home to see if he was okay and still alive...I didn't have to constantly text or call him to see where he was or what he was doing....I didn't have to make sure that he was headed down the right path...after the relationship I ended I realized exactly how much time I spent on all of the worry and questioning. I could have been using all of that time in a different manner but because I loved him...I chose to spend it worrying about him. Whether that was right or wrong...I did it. Do I have regrets or resentments? I would have to say yes as of right now....I feel like those past four almost five years were spent wasted on some relationship that I'm now thinking wasn't ever valid. Yes we were gloriously in love in the beginning...but then he fell hard and chose this path of lies and addictions and was no longer that same person that I fell in love with so many years ago. Why did I stay and not get out sooner? LOVE...it can make you do crazy things....but LOVE IS BLIND. Not until now did I ever notice how much damage he was doing to me and how much I hurt emotionally and how cold I had turned towards him. Even after everything that has happened....I do miss the relationship and I wonder if I will find the right person. And I know that there isn't a time line for life...like this needs to happen at this age and then this at that age...but to be completely honest...I feel like I am behind right now. I was in a relationship for four years and was engaged to be married to the man...and now I have nothing...no relationship...no engagement...no boyfriend...Is that crazy to think like that? Sounds crazy but that is how I am thinking...

Trying to Heal...

So lately I have been trying to accept that things are over and try and move on with my life...however...everyday people come to me with new information that I've never known which then in turn just results in me being hurt over and over again...making it hard for me to try and move on because then I start to dwell on and re-hash the past. I just can't fathom or even try to imagine how one person could be capable of hurting me so much as he has done. Everything that could possibly happen or go wrong in a relationship has happened with me. I've experienced a lot in the past four years and even though the relationship was not good...it was still four, almost five long years of my life...and it just kills me to think about how it ended and how I have to accept that he does not care. He is perfectly fine with me leaving his life and ending a long relationship. So I guess what hurts me the most is that a person can just allow someone who used to mean so much to them to just walk away...no questions asked. I mean if he did not care about me...why did he continue to stay in a long term relationship with me? Why did he ask me to marry him and buy me an engagement ring? Why did he try to get me to stay all the other times that I tried to walk away? What was he holding on to if he is able to say now that he is happy that it is over and is able to move on so quickly? I have so many questions and things that I would love to know....but they will probably never be answered. He does not want to talk and prefers to ignore the fact that I still even exist on this earth.
I was finally able to move everything out of the apartment this past Saturday. It felt both good and bad...good because it meant that I was trying to move on with my life and leaving something bad behind....but bad because I had to leave something that once meant the world to me....I had to leave it behind. I ran into him a couple of times at the apartment because he was then when he was supposed to be working. He did not say much of anything to me and the one day asked if I could come back another time because he did not want to see me. Every time I walked into the apartment...all the bad memories would come back to me and I would start crying...just knowing how much he hurt me and all the bad things that happened there. I've actually been spending a lot of my time crying lately...I don't know why, but I guess its my way of letting everything out. I guess I'm purging my body of all the negative emotions. The crazy thing is though...I can honestly say that I do not miss him....what I miss is having someone there. Even though he was not actually present most of the times because he was drunk or passed out or messed up off of something...but there was always someone there with me. Sounds odd I know...but its the truth. I do not miss him because I've come to realize that I did not like anything about the person that he turned into and I tried to spend so much time trying to change him back into the person that he was that I was blinding all of my emotions and feelings because I felt as though being there for him and helping him return to his normal self was something that I had to do. I felt obliged to do it because I was in a relationship with him. I guess I lost feelings for him awhile ago, but I felt as though it were my job and responsibility to get him better...even though it did not work. I felt as though if I were to leave that it would mean that I was giving up on him and that is not something that I do to people. I'm not the kind of person to walk away from a situation when things turn sour...but I feel that I should have in this situation because it was affecting me both physically and emotionally.
I am still so shocked though...he has moved on and is hanging out with some other girl...does not want to talk to me...and is happy that WE are over. I just have to keep repeating these things to myself so that I can stop dwelling and move forward. I know that I have been happier in the past two weeks not living with him or being with him than I have been in long time...even with all of the tears and emotional damage. I guess I'm just upset because the hurt keeps coming back and reminding me everyday...even if it is someone else telling me something new or I find out something else...I guess if I wanted to look at it in a positive light...I could be finding all of this out now as a way of preventing me from returning or trying to make the relationship work again...even though I know that I do not want it to ever work again...it has been damaged to the point of it not being fixable. I just have to get over it...but lately I have also been wondering....after all this damage and hurt and loss of trust...will I ever be able to trust anyone else...ever again? Right now I'm high doubting it...

HeartBroken...

So this past year has been very rough for me...with school...problems with life and my boyfriend. After many failed attempts...my boyfriend of 4 years and I had decided to give our relationship another shot because we had been together for so long...we felt that we should be able to work together and I BELIEVED him. He has had ups and downs with drugs, alcohol and identity issues but always supplied me with false promises of getting better and finding out who he really is and in the end...making our relationship better and what it used to be. However....after many lies...late nights of crying and yelling and not knowing where he was or what he was doing...IT IS OVER...once and for all...completely DONE. He broke my heart one too many times and to be completely honest...you can only waste so many tears on one person. He is no longer the person I was once dating and has not been for a very long time. He has took a turn for the worst and has ruined our relationship and brought the worst of me out. I have given my all in the relationship...always trying to hold it together and give him just one more chance so that maybe this will be the time that it works...but I can't do it anymore. Not only that...but how can a person continue to stay with someone when they no longer trust that person AT ALL! I have lost all trust in him and don't believe a word that has come out of his mouth for years. He has lied and hid stuff from me all the time and I continued to be the fool and stay. It should not be a common thing for a person to delete calls and texts from their cell phones with the hopes of hiding them or keeping them from another person...this however was my life...but I was on the receiving end. I was too blind...well maybe not...I guess maybe I didn't want to realize what he did to me or how many times he hurt me or the person that he brought out in me. I was so fun and carefree...but he turned me into a paranoid and controlling person because I felt that I had to know where he was at all times and know what he was doing...even though it didn't do a thing to help anything because he still did whatever he wanted and all along I was just wasting my precious time doing it. I would have to say though that out of everything that he has done to me...the information that I found out tonight was the most heartbreaking and painful information that I could ever find out...HE CHEATED ON ME. I have no idea as to how anyone could do such a thing to a person...but he did. I was on vacation last week with my sisters in Virginia...enjoying myself of course...with him texting me and calling me...acting like everything is normal. However...I came home on a Thursday night to a drunk Chuck...slurring his words and running into curbs and mailboxes...thinking that was bad enough...he did the same thing Friday night but got into a fight and got a bloody nose amd black eye...so why am I leading up to this point? Well because yet again he promised me the stars and said that WE would work out and then was all lovey-dovey with me all week...only to find out tonight that while I was on vacation...he got drunk and slept with some slutty, loser girl who lives upstairs in the apartment building...but then proceeded to not tell me and continue to text me the next day and act as if nothing happened. So you might be wondering how I found out? Well that is one crazy story...as is the rest of my life...So I come home from work tonight and start to make dinner as Chuck is at his AA meeting and everything is going smooth and he is acting completely normal. But then he gets a phone call to his phone and then all of a sudden a pound at the door is heard. So he goes to answer it and it is the girl that he slept with (but I don't know at the time) and she is yelling and cursing and telling Chuck that his life is over and I am completely lost...and then all of sudden she says "Yeah he cheated on you with me and he said that he doesn't wanna be with you anymore! Oh yeah and we fucked right then and there". I was just completely lost and clueless and astonished. I didn't want to believe it, but there it was...staring me right in the face...so then I ask Chuck and he is at first like "I don't know what she is talking about" and I knew right then and there that he was lying right to my face for the millionth time. He then just said that it was a mistake but didn't show any remorse at all. I then said it was over and that I never wanted to speak to him ever again and asked if he cared and all he had to say was that he "felt relieved" that it was over because all he hears from me is "bitching and complaining" and that just about killed me. How a person who I have stood by and protected and helped through everything could simply say that about someone that he has been together with for almost 5 years...I just felt like the whole thing was crazy and all a bad dream...but its not...it is very real and very heartbreaking...

So you may be wondering as to why I am sharing this here on my blog? Well that is because I will no longer allow myself to be treated that way ever again. I will not be lied to or cheated on or taken advantage of or badmouthed...I will not accept it anymore and refuse to let anyone else in my life who will do that. Yes this will probably be one of the hardest things I will ever do...but it has to be done...I have lost so much...respect for myself and self-esteem and self-worth...I am not the same person that I used to be and I blame it on the unhealthy relationship that I was in. This marks the beginning of my new life....I will continue on with my life and be very happy...I will no longer allow any man to make me feel that way again...I have realized that I love too deeply and hold on too hard even when I just need to let go. I was staying in this unhealthy relationship for far too long and it needs to change...I need to get myself back and start living life again...

I have realized that I LOVE like I SHOULD...but LIVE like I SHOULDN'T...but that will all change from this day forward...

Tis the Season for Grapefruit...

I'm not really a fan of grapefruit, but while I was shopping at Trader Joes, I found one that I thought was really pretty (I know right), so I decided to pick one up with hopes of finding a recipe for it later. Well, while browsing online for a recipe...I sliced up any citrus fruits that I had in the house and decided to make a little photo shoot. These are some of the photos...

Then after messing around a big with my camera...I decided that I better start making whatever it is that I was going to make. I was able to find a recipe for a grapefruit salad. It has a rather odd selection of ingredients...and although I didn't enjoy the outcome because I don't like grapefruit, my boyfriend thought it was amazing! Here it is!

Grapefruit Salad with Mint Yogurt Dressing

-2 Pink Grapefruit
-1.5 tbsp Extra Virgin Olive Oil
-10 Ounces Seedless Grapes with the Stems Removed
-1 tbsp Honey
-2 Handfuls Raspberries
-12 Mint Leaves, Finely Shredded
-1 Cup Thick Plain Yogurt


Directions
-Peel and segment the grapefruit over a bowl and reserve any juices that drip from them.
-Heat skillet and add 2 teaspoons of oil and add grapes. Cook over high heat to blister them slightly, shaking the pan often to cook them evenly. Add the grapefruit juice and cook until it's almost evaporated, then add honey and bring to a boil. Then tip the product into a bowl and leave to cool.
-When the grapes are cool, add grapefruit segments, raspberries and remaining oil and gently toss.
-Mix the mint into the yogurt.
-To serve, spoon the fruit salad into 4 small bowls and dollop minted yogurt on top.

And this is what you get!

Marilyn Monroe

I just got finished watching How to Marry a Millionaire with no one other than Marilyn Monroe and Lauren Bacall. Being a huge fan of Marilyn's I decided to dedicate this post strictly to her beauty and fame.

What do I wear to bed? Why Chanel No. 5, of course....
-Marilyn Monroe

A thing of beauty is a joy forever...
-John Keats

Fantabulously Frugal Giveaway!

So I came across this website from the 20 Something Bloggers and absolutely love it! This blog lets you know all about free stuff that is being given away, discounts, sales and coupons as well as giveaways! I LOVE the blog and the fact that she shares this information with everyone!

During the month of May, she hosted 31 Days of Giveaways, however I was not fortunate enough to win one of her amazing prizes. But she is now offering a second chance! A HUGE giveaway with many great things with a value at about $300! Here is what she is giving away!

Fantabulously Frugal

• Decorative envelopes from Etsy seller Adnagam
• Frango Dark Chocolate Mints
• Sunshine Yellow Hair Pins from Etsy seller creamrose
• Purple Rain Amethyst Earrings from Etsy seller Sew*Cool Design
• Paperchase 8 Folded Cards with Envelopes
• Small change purse from Etsy seller Made by Hank
• Cucumber Melon Salty Soap Scrub from Etsy seller Sissy Soap
• Soap Nuts from Laundry Tree
• Spring Flower Garden Cupcake Liners from Etsy seller Layer Cake Shop
• 2 Vera Bradley cloth napkins
• Musings Recycled Notebook in Blue from Etsy seller subu
• Fleur de Lis Necklace from Etsy seller Bumble Beadz
• Marc Jacobs key fob
• Stationery and small letter-pressed notebook from Etsy seller Sarah Drake
• Estee Lauder Advanced Night Repair Protective Recovery Complex
• Coriander Ivory Small Cosmetic Bag from Etsy seller The Sweet Sugar Beet
• Smashbox Lip Gloss
  
• Reusable Sandwich & Snack Bags from Etsy seller Green Street
• Reversible Coffee Sleeve from Etsy seller LilE
• Running with Scissors by Augusten Burroughs
• OPI Nail Polish
  
• Stick With Me, Kid Shopping Tote from Etsy seller Earth Cadets
• As well as MANY MORE surprises!

So if anyone is interested, go to her blog and enter the giveaway! She gives you many chances, but you do have to work for it! Good luck!

Alicia

It's Summer Time!

So, as usual, once the spring semester ends I always spend some time thinking about how I will occupy myself over the summer and what new endeavor I will take on. This past week I got a pedicure and manicure and have been doing a little summer shopping here and there. However, I got to liking the whole pampering thing and have considered scheduling myself a massage along with a lot of other things. I love getting into the summer "mode" because you can get away with a lot during the summer whereas you can't during the other seasons.

I have been prepping my skin for the summer, using a variety of moisturizers and other random products, but one that I MUST rave about is a product from BLISS. It is a finishing foam with carrot sesame and honey and it works so well! I did not yet try the scrub but the finishing foam is great! You apply it to your damp skin and it sinks right in! I felt that it left my skin so silky smooth and it lasted a long time! But I just thought that I could share that little tid-bit with everyone!


I also had a Strawberry Mojito and felt that it was such a summery drink! So light, refreshing and sweet! I have posted the recipe below to share with everyone! Enjoy!

Strawberry Mojito

Ingredients

• 2 ounces white rum
• 10 fresh mint leaves
• 2 strawberries, halved
• 1/2 lime, quartered
• club soda
• 1 teaspoon sugar

Steps

1. Put lime, sugar, strawberries & mint in the bottom of a tall glass and muddle
2. Add ice, rum and fill to the top with soda and stir

What Do I Love About Summer?

Flip Flops!

Summer Nights

The Beach

Umbrella Drinks!

And so much more! But I thought that this post would get everyone ready for summer and vacations! Until the next time!

Alicia

Just Some Random Ideas...

So this post is going to be totally random, but I have so many cute ideas that I discovered over the weekend that I had to share! I spent my Memorial Day weekend up in the mountains in this itsy-bitsy, tiny, little town called Germania in Potter County, Pennsylvania. It was beautiful and very relaxing and remote. These are some of the things that I got to experience over the weekend.

Sun Tea

First off, being a HUGE fan of unsweetened iced tea, I loved brewing the stuff and never even heard about sun tea. However, while we were up there, my boyfriend's step-mother brewed some and it was delicious! Who would have ever thought to brew iced tea that way?

Strawberries In What?

I love to try new things and change and invigorate my palate once in awhile and was shockingly suprised when majority of the items prepared for my boyfriend and I contained strawberries. It was absolutely delicious, but very different. The people who live up there tend to use whatever grows wild up there and incorporates that into their everyday meals so I had a lot of strawberries and leeks, but not together. Some of these recipes included:

-Strawberry-Goat Cheese Bruschetta
-Pulled Pork with Strawberry BBQ Sauce
-Iceberg Lettuce & Strawberry Salad with Vinaigrette Dressing
-Parmesan-Stuffed Chicken and Melted Strawberries

Do You Buy And Support Your Local Farmers?

Farming is a type of lifestyle up there and it came to my attention that majority of these farmers are suffering due to the fact that we import a lot our products and no longer utilize our local goods. I therefore decided that I would start shopping locally for my fruits, vegetables, milk and meats and no longer buy everything from the grocery store.

Make Your Own Granola Or Bar!

When I came back to civilization after spending 3 days without cellphone service or internet, I checked my email and my mother had send me these websites where you can make your own granola or bar! Here are the websites if you want to check them out and give it a try yourself! I definitely plan on ordering some granola! The extra special touch is that you get to name your creation!


www.mixmygranola.com

www.youbars.com

Campfires

I never realized how relaxing they are...just sitting in front of the fire and watching the flames dancing upon the logs. It almost forces you to relax and invites you to forget about everything around you. You are thoughtless for the time being, only watching the flames and falling into a type of trance. It was so relaxing and the warmth of the fire created a cozy atmosphere, as the mountain nights get a little chilly.

Well that is about it for right now, but I just had to share some of these great ideas that I was either made aware of or was able to enjoy over the weekend.

Until the next time!

Alicia

The Doors of New Hope

I've been really into taking pictures since I got Cool Pics from my boyfriend for Christmas and I have been taking the most random, but beautiful pictures. I know it is not a fancy, high-tech or any kind of special digital camera, but I love it and have been recently experimenting with it. I thought that I would share some of the cute pictures that I took while on a little day trip to New Hope. I've always loved looking at the doors of people's houses and feel that they can say a lot about the character of the house. Personally, I love the French double doors, but I was not able to find any of those to take pictures of, but I did find some charming ones. Looking at doors always make me think about what type of character is locked up inside of them or what lies behind them. But anyway, enough of the random talk, here are some of the pictures. Just thought that I would share!

Alicia

These are some of the beautiful old homes.

These are some of the cute little shop and cafe signs.

These are some of the doors.

The Drawing Board

So, this week is officially my first full week off of school and I am so excited! My summers are my source of escape....an escape from homework, research papers, clinical and professors. My summers are MY time to let my creativity run free, my ideas and dreams to flourish and my time to experience new things. I'm not sure as to what my summer will hold for me quite yet, but I do have some great ideas! I plan to go on MANY day trips, shopping trips and random trips. I hope to try new foods, meet new people and have FUN! So right now I am just looking for some inspiration to trigger ideas for my summer. I was looking through this one book and it had some inspirational ideas for each letter of the alphabet for a positive attitude and I figured that I would share it with everyone because I absolutely LOVED it!

A:

Attitude: a positive attitude is our inner light.
Turn it on and let it shine bright.

B:

Believe in yourself in order for others to do the same.
C:
Charm your way out of anything!
It's a girl's 'get out of jail free' card!
D:
Dream big!
E:
Eclectic: mix and match to suit your mood;
Don't follow one system of style.
F:
Femininity is every woman's gift.
Its priceless and timeless.
G:
Glamour:
An elegant pair of earrings, a deeper shade of lipstick
Or a perfect manicure.

H:
Heart: never do something if your heart is not in it.
I:
Integrity: whatever you do, do it with integrity.
J:
Joie de vivre! The joy of life transcends any language.
K:
Kindness: make acts of kindness regular rather than random.
L:
Laughter is contagious. Pass it on!
M:
Make a home and love where you live!
N:
New: always try something new!
O:
Openness: keep an open mind and nurture an open heart!
P:
Poise and Posture are essential in order to walk tall through life.

Q:
Quirkiness: add a dash of the unpredictable into your day!
R:
Respect your own decisions!
S:
Spirit: your spirit is the engine room of your life!
Keep it stoke and enthusiastic!
T:
Touch should never be underestimated!
A hand to hold, a shoulder to cry on...

U:
Uniqueness is the difference between getting lost in the crowd...
And standing out on your own.
V:
Vision means seeing things not just for what they are now,
But what they can be in the future.
W:
World: do your little bit to make a BIG difference!
X:
X marks the spot. Put your stamp on something so that it
Lingers on when you are long gone!

Y:
You are only work as much as you invest in yourself.
Love yourself! Be kind to yourself! Appreciate yourself!
Z:
Zest: "Zest is the secret of all beauty.
There is no beauty that is attractive without zest!"

Well, I hope that this is able to help inspire some people and enlighten others! Until the next time, take care!

Alicia

Just doing some thinking...

So this is officially my very first blog post! It is my summer off from nursing school and was thinking of different ways to enlighten my time and thought about creating a blog. I have so many great ideas and things to write about and include on my blog! I can't wait! But this will be it for now...as I want to get some things set up...

Will get back later!